When all my dreams come true,
the one I want next to me?
I would like to make it clear that I have bought
this tablecloth with its simple repeating pattern
of dark purple blooms not named by any botanist
because it reminds me of that printed dress you had
the summer we met - a dress you have always said
I never told you I liked. Well I did, you know. I did.
I liked it a lot, whether you were inside it or not.
How did it slip so quietly out of our life?
I hate - I really hate - to think of some other bum
swinging those heavy flower-heads left to right.
I hate even more to think of it mouldering on a tip
or torn to shreds - a piece here wiping a dipstick,
a piece there tied round a crack in a lead pipe.
It's all a long time ago now, darling, a long time,
but tonight just like our first night here I am
with my head light in my hands and my glass full,
staring at the big drowsy petals until they start to swim,
loving them but wishing to lift them aside, unbutton them,
tear them, even, if that's what it takes to get through
to the beautiful, moon-white, warm wanting skin of you.
Sometimes you wonder in life if the choices you made are right, if it would have been better if
you've chosen some other way. But some choices you know are just right and even if others tell
you otherwise, you know you wouldn't want it any other way [:
Knights outing to sentosa on sat was da bomb haha [: It was so fun being in the water all the day,
playing capt's ball on shoulder sits, trying stunts in the water, riding with the waves haha love
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Now I know that this is right, and this is perfect.
Its getting to the June hols in like 3 weeks, which is super duper fast! Need to study hard, jiayou
jiayou Yi Ying [:
Its been lovely getting to know better people around you, Debs, Shaf, Greg (the ego person who
wants me to blog about him). Lessons are made more fun when you have people sitting around
you (like JK ahemahem) who makes faces at you when you draw on them as they're dozing off,
so as to keep you awake yourself haha! And nice nice people who are very sweet and tell you that
you were a good emcee like Greg, even though you know that you were crappy.
And of course, there's you who's always been here. [:
Note to self: Pray, love and smile.